Wow...my holidays have officially come to an end...and I have still so many work not even touched yet.

 

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hiaz...this holiday is seriously not enough...Why won't they extend it by another week? I'll have plenty of time to do what I must be than...

Lol..another 2 weeks of my life has just passed. Full of cycling and camping. Lol..i'm so glad we finally got a new instructor..phew..hmmm...there's ton of photos on my FACEBOOK acct so go take a look...

Man...i slept 12 hours last night after the camp...lol...we had a fun bbq and also many events. Wow..learnt a new game too, its called Murderer. Super fun and easy to play. Hmmm...gotten to know many of the new members too. Alot of them sia...some very nice..some very shy and some very happening...lol. hiaz...but than also feels weird to join them...already the projects we keep lagging behind, not doing of them sometimes somemore...dunno how to also join with choir at the same time...hiaz...T.T super stress sia...gastric not helping as well. Feel so sad and depress all the time as well....

But i managed to put up this cool skin ^^ So shouldn' be so bad ba...haha

You know how ppl often say stick and stones may break my bones but words could never hurt me?

How many of us can actually follow that saying? Living life pretending to ignore or just accept the cruel words ppl say. Well hey, I've been doing it all my life but somehow...sometimes it works...sometimes it doesnt...and whenever it doesn't, I sometimes just wish I was dead...that way...maybe those ppl would be happier...I mean...maybe somehow when I'm gone, the world will truly be a happier place.

Rmb seeing TV dramas and than the girlfriend or the mom has to die before everyone understands each other and become best of friends and lead their happily ever after? Its so sad that someone has to die in order for true happiness to come forth. Maybe my life is like that...maybe I should just disappear...

My pet bird just died today...and the feeling sucks...too many fond memories...yet somehow life just goes on...i'm sure my pet bird isn't like those girls in the drama series. His absence is greatly felt by me...and I'm certainly not happier right now.

All that is left is now a quiet house...with no one singing the songs I once sung or the cheerful noise he makes each time we come home...

 

where ever  you are my friend..you are greatly missed.

Wow..for the past few days, all I've been doing was sleep, eat, watch youtube and than go back to sleep somemore. It's bee super boring lately...nothing much to do...well except of course for the class chalet. It's been pretty interesting that day. Everything kinda went exceptionally well including the food. Hehe...the satay was the best. BBQ Wholesale is definitely the place to go when having your next bbq. Everything is catered. Lol...had fun bowling, at the arcade but can't say for the room though...

its a bit on the small, dark and cramp side. Kinda feels abit spooky if you're staying there alone =.= Note to self, never use yellow lights, always use florescent. Not only is it brighter, its energy efficient, eco-friendly and lasts longer than any other bulb I know.

 

You know...life's been fun...when you look back at it. Yet somehow, I feel so sad everything I go back to my memories. Not really sure why but I think...its cause they have ended. Seeing yourself as a child once more just seems to remind you now that...you're no longer than innocent or the world is definitely no longer just your private playground. There are other people living and playing in it too.

 

Day after day, disaster occur one after the other. Suddenly that safe little house you call home, doesn't feel so safe after all. People can just barge in and drag you out or worse, destroy it in the blink of an eye. Its times like this where sense has no meaning after all. Your whole world is turned upside down. 

Been wondering thru the streets of tamp. Shops been set up to commemorate Valentine's but somehow...it just seems to be so quiet...not many ppl holding hands....hiaz....or maybe its just me?

Been having artistic depression really. Can't find a way to express myself...my little book has been filled with doodles but its just not enough. Singing can't even heal this depression. No song can really make me sing to it anymore....Hiaz!!! AHH!!!

Class has been planning a chalet recently. Seems like quite a fun thing. But price so ex...T.T...plus...nothing to do much there also...up to me and Daph to make the place more interesting...>.<..hiaz..exams are coming too...T.T the tears just cant stop now.

Maybe I should try my hand at dancing...lol....

In commenmoration for Saint Valentine's Day, I have decided to create a Valentine's theme blog so that nobody can say Ras is a miserable and grouchy person abt Valentine's day. Plus, its nice to celebrate it no? Expensive chocolates and flowers every you go. Everything is in pink (Yay!) and everywhere you go, you see couples holding hands, making out in every corner you turn. Your void deck suddenly becomes a very sleazy and squeezy place to get to your doorstep. And the girls you hate suddenly calls you or corners you to show you the bouquet her new bf just got her or that new jewellery. Yup people, its Valentine's Day!!! T.T

Now people, here is the history of Saint Valentine's Day:

At that time the Roman Emperor Claudius-II had issued an edict forbidding marriage. As he felt that married men were more emotionally attached to their families, and thus, will not make good soldiers. He believed it made the men weak. So to assure quality soldiers, he banned marriage.

Saint Valentine (an actual priest) realized the injustice of the decree. Seeing the trauma of young lovers, he met them in a secret place, and joined them in the sacrament of matrimony. He defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. But Claudius soon learned of this "friend of lovers," and had him arrested.

While Valentine was in prison awaiting his fate, he came in contact with his jailor, Asterius. The jailor had a blind daughter. Asterius requested him to heal his daughter. The Catholic legend has it that through the vehicle of his strong faith he miraculously restored the sight of Asterius' daughter and just before his execution, he asked for a pen and paper from his jailor, and signed a farewell message to her "From Your Valentine," a phrase that lived ever after.

Romantic no? But alas poor Saint Valentine was executed on 14th Feb in 270 AD and is a well celebrated holiday in many European nations. But of course no one knows if this legend is true, but he really existed. Another legend foretold that he was actually a broken-hearted man rejected by his lover so one day, he plunged a knife to his chest and cut out his heart and than gave it to his lover with his cold dying hands. Thats why heart shaped cards are given to show the other lover of the suffering and overwhelming passion that is exprienced on this side.

Hiaz...been a lonely Valentine's Day for the past 19 years T.T...hopefully this time round, I won't be forced to watch chick flick reruns on the tele again. Prince Charming where are you?!!!

Btw, did you know that all the fairytales we have in our heads were written by men? Cinderella, Snow White and Sleeping Beauty. Its kinda ironic cause these fantasies were written by men and yet somehow, women believe that one day such imaginary guys would come forth. Its practically like the author writing abt a guy he wished he could be and girls actually believing that such a guy exists. Its close to impossible no?

But for whatever reason, I swear never to love for the wrong reasons. Not out of loneliness, not out of pity and certainly not out of force(treason). To love someone must be a love that is genuine and from the heart. No matter how evil or cruel anyone may be, everyone still deserves true love. So I'll wait for this imaginary prince charming. ^^ I know that one day we'll find each other but not while I'm sitting in my castle and mopping. I'll make sure I live my life out proper because that is what I deserve as well ^^.

Happy Valentine's Day!

I wanna eat cookies as cute as these!!! AHH!!

Chocolates as cute as these toooo!!! T.T

Lol...yesteray all us went out to PizzaHut for lunch.
Guys: Jeremy, Wee Chang, Terrence, Justin and Yan Lin
Girls: Joanna, Fadilah and Me^^
Couldn't Take all their pics though.



























Lol...was quite funny when you're dining with them. Some dunno how to effectively use the cheese dispenser, some were talking about songs but ALL were making fun of Justin. Haha...poor guy, lucky he can handle it. I think I would have cried by then...haha..thickskin?

What was funny was when he said he wanted to buy the Garnier Roll it. First time I hear that a guy wants to buy it. Sad thing was that I finally learn that I have eyebags too!!! Been researching formulas on preventing it last night =.=...so anyway, after hunting for it. Wee Chang and Jeremy left...thats where the fun stuff begins!

Finally decided to go to arcade to play games at TM...then end up we all play separate things. Played Time Crisis with Fadilah. Haha...both of us ended up dying at the same time. Haha...her accruracy not bad sia. Justin and Yan Lin went to play basketball. Lol..quite interesting...they also end up same scores. But Joanna and Terrence never play!!! They just watch onli T.T.

Anyway...the funniest part of this whole outing was when one crazy zabor (me) wanted to pay ParaPara Dance Mania..the floor version. Haha...end up play all C or D....quite pathetic...than Justin was like trying out the same moves with me. He also play till like very happy...Than ask him want play, he say dun wan. Ok lor...than I tried the next door one, the hands version. Wah! I played till like super PS! Can't dance like the model inside la...than dunno why so many rounds! Finally the last one, we all manage to persuade Justin to try. Lol...have a video of him trying. Super funny la...Willing to sell it for 20cents!! Lol

Finally, the hands version gave Justin the urge to dance the floor one. SO end up we play 2 rounds. But he's much better at it leh...T.T...lol...must be quite a sight. One barefooted girl dancing and one wide eyed guy keep saying ehh? everytime he misses. Hahahahaha....

In the end, after games went to food court to eat my dinner and Justin's teabreak. Where all his food go sia? Lol. End up, the topic moves on to ppl eating their own shit. Cuzed quite a big Wooha sia. Ends up the conclusion is that Justin enjoys eating his own...$%&@. Super gross when you're eating dry Beef noodles. Finally all went home while I went back to Choir.

After choir, when I missed my 23, I decided to walk home. Managed to take photo of the lantern deco at the Prime Market there. Was listening to Christian Bautista while walkin home. Super bad choice...was remembering all the bad memories. Practically in tears by the time I reached my old sec school..




Thats where I came up with the sms and sent it to everyone I held dear. And pray it comes true too.



Love is simple, Love is kind
Love is blind, but that's just fine.

In my world of darkness and endless time,
I have one simple wish.
And that is for all the love any of us have given,
To be given back by that one person we hold so dear


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